05.04.2012, 01:21 PM | #1 |
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more than half a year ago i tried tripping for the first (and last) time, what an awful experience, i felt like i was going to die.
since then i've been thinking about death (particularly being dead, not the process of dying itself) a lot. sometimes it scares me so much to know one day i won't exist anymore that i feel like throwing up. what is it like to be dead? do you move into the next world (doubt that shit)? are you re-born? do you just disappear/rest forever? i think the death of a person IS a big deal. otherwise there would be no difference between the death of a human being and the death of a fly. this fear of death makes me wanna bring kids into this world. knowing i'll have one or more children is the ONLY way i can let my mind relax each time. i wanna be such a badass human being and go down as a legend. more than anything, i want my father to be proud of me. |
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05.04.2012, 01:25 PM | #2 |
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while i am scared of death, i actually do want to die someday too. i mean living forever would be horrible. there's a time each one of us needs to go.
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05.04.2012, 01:34 PM | #3 |
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I was born dead (serious - I have the scars to prove it).
It's really no big deal. Take a deep breath. Relax. |
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05.04.2012, 05:28 PM | #4 |
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my own death doesn't scare me one bit.
others dying and the pain that causes me is what scares me. i thought that wouldn't sound selfish but it actually does. i think the idea of having children just because you think they're supposed to be an "extension of you" or a way to overcome death is pretty gross.
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05.04.2012, 05:59 PM | #5 |
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My friend tripped on shrooms and had a terrible trip regarding his death n stuff too. SCarred him too. Funny...yesterday I was thinking about it too, and realized one should be afraid about it. SOmetimes I feel like the fear of death is moreso the fear of the pain that might come with it or the fact taht you may be judged in the afterlife(thank you religion). but yeh, I myself don't think about it as a scary thing. Dying is the the next best thing after living.
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05.04.2012, 07:20 PM | #6 |
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you only feel that way now. wait until your experience finally resonates into your soul, permeate your mind into awareness and teach you the vision it was meant to be. The problem with casual psychedelics is there is simply no such thing. Its always a vision quest, one way or the other. Some visions will scare you like that. but in time, you will learn the depth of what it really means, and the fear will subside towards an epiphany, or even more correctly a theophany.
and I don't fear death, I roll tough with Our Lady, I fear for other people's death because they are so afraid it hurts them, and pain is whats fearful. If death is permanently nothing or permanently heavenly, either way its beyond our scope, however the pain of this life hurts to the core. Death hurts the survivors, the dead folks are fine in their graves.
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yes, that is precisely the idea. enjoy the journey, life is bigger then 1s and 0s
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05.05.2012, 04:27 PM | #9 |
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just thoughts
and people can have them on the same time if some one died people will start to think about and some normal thought around it will be made depends on peoples age what they think young people won't think much of it the older more serious thoughts will be giving it depending on the individual and it's capabilty to let go of thoughts more individual thing as most of these thought can't bother other people and be misunderstood part where the rationalism, words, visuals and all other input that came into a person is uplifted can be an irritating thing if you want other peoples to think the same way as yourself wich is irrational |
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05.05.2012, 04:37 PM | #10 |
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Ive always thought about death but recently ive felt more physically vulnerable than i ever have. Probably down to many years of inadvisable lifestyle choices, but it has the obverse effect of making me more open minded to art, music and literature. Feeling physically unsure certainly focuses the mind.
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05.05.2012, 04:49 PM | #11 |
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sensitivity of these matters are mostly forgotten
full moon and things people with ordinairy fears think all comes down to feeling comforatble with your own thought my thought = nature is forward death is backward didn't think much of death in 35 years of times to be really honest and i don't feel like doing it see no reason why in general thinking not everyone will understand the input or how to deal with it do find it brave that people talk about it open their thought try to interact in what they think or feel many people will be lurking for gossip or sight see'ing this thread i see it as a fossile that destroys normal flow of life and the incapabilty of speaking about it ofcourse it hasn't have to become a long streched drama |
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05.05.2012, 05:43 PM | #12 |
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Weird. After a near-death experience about a year ago, I was fucked up for a little while.
Then, I considered the experience practice. I began to feel kinda okay about it. I certainly don't have a zen-like serenity toward the concept of my non-existence, but I do have a slightly more mature, resigned attitude. On the other hand, notice that right now I have trouble even typing out the D-word and I feel more comfortable using other language. It is the most frightening, horrible thing ever. But then, it's just a loss of consciousness. Ever pass out? Same thing, except you never wake up. But you'll never know you'll never wake up. Conclusion: It's a huge deal, but also not a big deal at all. Oh, and the fact that I never grew up with a concept of Hell and I don't fear damnation helps a hell of a lot. |
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When i used to play football i would get heart palpitations nearly every game and on a couple of occasions i passed out. Half the time i would stay on the pitch and carry on trying to play, insane as that sounds.
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That's not insane, the MLS league requires several layers of on-field circulation and pulmonary testing before clearing players to play each contract signing. Some folks have simply dropped dead on the pitch!
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I mean it was insane that i didnt do anything about it and just carried on, mainly because im so bloody minded. "My heart's fizzing like packet of mentos in a bottle of coke? Thats no reason to stop running" was my attitude. I think its fair to say i didnt have the best guidance in my teenage years.
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All of my experiences w/ tripping have brought me to a place to where I'm more comfortable w/ concepts like death and all that jazz...all my experiences have been beautiful and the only downer is that I can't stay in that place. Everything is far more beautiful.
Sans dextromethorphan. That shit brought me to a very dark place I have no desire to ever return to. Nothing ever really "ceases to exist". The matter I'm made up of will go on to become other things. Of course, my mind, whatever makes me "Sway", may not..but death likely means this is a fact I won't be aware of (another reason to not fear it). We just, become one with the cosmos in the same way we've always been one with it. That's all I know. Nothing, in my opinion, to be feared. maybe there is some sort of collective consciousness (nature?) in death. I don't know. And the only likely difference between the death of a human and a fly is an emotional one. I doubt Mr. Dead Fly has many friends that miss him....but even with that, so???? In 1,000 years there will likely be little (if any) record of anyone on this forum. What info MIGHT be available won't interest most people of that time (taken, of course, people still exist). Just live and enjoy it. At the very least, ya have this life. Focus on that...death is coming regardless of anything. Sorta like taking a piss or drinking a glass of water. It's just part of what we are.
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and all things of the past many people have a state of choque if you know that car accidents have the most deadth involved and so the near death will be there too thinking of people who died by deseases will create a world wide same thinking towards these things everywhere in the world people die and this will have a same impact on people world wide from that thinking i think i'm rite as not do think much about these things because i have my normal life to continue it would make my life impossible to continue thinking about everyone who died or has a near death experience i think i feel good and that is importand without beeing selfish |
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almost forgot to mention i crashed my car into someone else's and totaled it a few weeks after that first experience. wasn't as scary, but i thought i was going to die.
those two events fucked me up for a while.. |
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