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I Found Myself in a Place I'd Rather Not Be Caught Dead in...
One of those places that have big "rock bands!" that play "crazy covers!" of "House of Pain!"....
I thought I was being a kind person by going there. I was told that a girl, whom I've been friends with since we were tiny little girls, needed me back in her life, because she's going down "the wrong path", and I needed to "be her friend" that night. (Sorry about the obsessive use of quotations, but sometimes a point must be drawn across) Anyway, I was stuck in a situation, where I could have mistaken my life for that of a thirteen year old (given the intoxicated state of mind I forced upon myself, anything was possible). Don't get me wrong, even if I were sober, I'd still have felt like a child again... I ended up waiting around until around 4:00 in the morning (I'm an old lady, it's hard on me), since I thought it best to stay somewhere in the ol' suburbs, since at that point, I was drawn astray, and quite far from my downtown home. Finally, I said I wouldn't do it any longer, and spent a bloody $40 on a cab!! Well, anyway, I don't rant much on here, so I hope you will forgive me. Feel free to add stories/complaints of anything or whatnot.. |
A Wonderstuffs gig, because of a girl. Shameless and, because nothing much came of the girl thing, pointless.
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Bitches ain't worth the indignity. |
I thought at this age in my life, paths have already been taken. Apparently some people stay 16 forever.
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Too true, by the way.
Silly hoes (does that work?) I kid, I don't mean that. |
You know what else burns my butter? When people analyze you to no end...
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this thread seems to be bringing us into the seinfeld realm again: Cn one break up with a friend? and shit, 40$ for a cab, is this in toronto? |
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you seem to be wanting to re-connect with your past. maybe you feel that you were a better person, or at least you had some qualities when you were younger that you wish you still had. your self-realization of "being" younger last night was your present ego attempting to justify your current self, and it was a little bit frightening, so you shelled out $40 to get away from it |
Actually, like most people, I believe I'm a better person than when I was a young teenager. Fugazi's reply sums up my exact feelings...
But, your analyzation was well put. |
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No, I'm out west now. The cabs are more expense in Toronto. But, this was a cab ride across the entire city, basicaly. I had no choice. |
oh my, just realized i was really analyzing myself. that's frightening. but on the whole, yeah I do think I'm a better person than when I was 13-15
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Except I haven't spent time with these people since jr. high, and even then I found myself to be uncomfortably different from them. |
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I'm sure you are. Anyone that hasn't progresed since that age... well, just ask my old chums from last night. |
haha... yes I know the type you are talking about... I see them around town sometimes... those people I kind of knew 6 or 7 years ago, and they look the same, just with facial hair/beer guts now
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I feel the opposite of how you guys are describing your selves. I'm not on some "bad path" that needs to be saved from, but I do feel like my life has changed very little in the past 3-5 years and that I've alienated myself away from friends that are on a similar plateau, and ones that have been much more productive.
In my head I dont despair and feel like the latter have left me behind, its just that I still need to get some shit together and thats okay, but it does bug me a bit to wonder if they think like theyre leaving me "behind", like you can track success like that, that they feel sorta the same way you do about your friends. |
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Well, you are an altered course. Altered doesn't necessarily mean "bad" or "behind", of course. I sometimes feel far behind the people I am truly friends with. The people I've been referring to are only associates, whom I encountered because I was saying hello and goodbye to the girl I knew when I was quite young, since I'm moving to Vancouver on Tuesday, which is appraently where you're from- awesome. Anyway, most people I am close to, and respect, are finishing their degrees, or have already done that, and I dropped out of mine a couple years ago, and don't know if I'll even go back! I know they don't see me as being behind, simply because I've chosen a different path, and I'm sure you're people feel the same way... |
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I think it's inappropriate and inconsiderate to call mentally handicapped people "retards", but that is so cute....
They are hardcore. It sounds like a Minor Threat show, lol. |
sounds like you went to the back alley or the kingshead lol
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Worse! The "Rusty Cage".. Or, is that worse, I don't know?
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