Might go tomorrow even before i see DJ Gary Numan at Club Noir [eurgh! - why did I agree to that.]

A total Grace Slick vibe there, me mate:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xhYk9PEmXA

I'd like to try yogurt and salsa together.

Making a Yalsa? Or a Soghurt? "Try new gmku's Hot Mexican Yalsa - the flavour from South of the Border!"

no one came over last night cuz i ended up just passing out at like 5:30 or 6.30 or some shit and i didn't wake up until 11:30 in the morning

which means i was asleep for...

17 hours? 18 hours?



sheepfucker.

Wow - that what I do call a power nap! You feeling alright for it? I imagine that you'd want to wait a bit before amphetaminging it up again. I take it you'll be chillin' with a few joints today...

i'm fine right now

truth be told i kind of don't like smoking joints...piece/bong any day of the week

but i chill with a few joints/bowls/bong loads/etc every day. so yeah.

Bong out, man.

I forgot about this one - I once consumed so many mushrooms that I spent an entire DAY tripping - that was well fun. I remember trying to buy spices at a local supermarket, and getting so into looking at the colours of the spices - didn't move for 15 minutes, and needless to say everyone who saw me thought "Loony tune!" and avoided me, heh heh heh.

i have two or three tabs of acid that i bought like six months ago that i still haven't done

i don't think i've ever dropped acid in new york before, that should be interesting but i'll save it for night time when there isn't so many people walking around.

Can you walk in Centrak Park at night? (I mean, the parks aren't closed off at night like they are in Central London, like Hyde Park). Tripping whilst walking around a big park at night would be both spooky and awesome.

i had a pretty nasty coke habit this time last year. i did it for the last time a couple months ago and had a horrible comedown/all-out-brawl with my boyfriend and decided that was that. i smoke weed occasionally, i would probably smoke more if i lived in a town where i knew people to buy it from (i just moved out of state) and i drink sometimes but i shouldn't because a) i am taking anti-depressants and b) i am allergic to alcohol

cigarettes and the occasional hydrocodone or vicodin are my main vices now.

Sounds only spooky to me. Walking at night through Central Park STRAIGHT would be weird enough.

yeah, you can but you're not supposed to
i've tripped and walked through a foresty area at night by where i used to live (not in new york)
it is equally spooky and awesome

gmku - tell ya what, when I (finally) drag my South London arse to NYC, I'll walk through Central Park at night whilst eating your patented Yalsa recipe. The Yalsa would supply all the awesomeness right there.

hey there!
druggie talk.

fun that!

i was addicted to oxycontin and heroin for about 2 years. been clean for a year in a week. i originally went stone sober for 8 months, no drinking, no grass, nothing. in that time i got my life back on track. slowly but surely i felt comfortorable having a drink again, and weed is actually coming back to me, but i might get a prescription for it for anxiety (i got anxiety major, but i hate benzodiazipines, weed is the only thing that workls for me). bottom line, i shouldnt be doing anything, but im doing really good now, i feel content. anyone who needs to quit something, know this: it SUCKS getting clean. you most likely have fucked up the relationships with your straight friends, and your dope buds will drop you because you cant party anymore. you will feel extremly akward, and the months that follow the initial sickness are waaaaay worse than the physical symptoms. diraehha and a fever and nausea are not nearly as bad as neverending boredom, depression, anxiety, and a feeling of empitiness thats extremly hard to shake. but, it goes away, and eventually the friends will come back, the ones that matter anyways, and you will feel amazing. so, yheah, im a drug addict, but, you gotta deal with it, right?

batreleaser - your story is both harrowing and heartening. Even in spite of your relapse, you've come through it all clean and (most importantly) happy again. Keep it up, my man, you deserve it and you're too nice a geezer to fall into the world of addiction again. :)

i hear you on that one, i'm quite afraid from what i know about the time after...
how did you resist the urge to fix just once to get rid of the "neverending boredom, depression, anxiety, and a feeling of empitiness thats extremly hard to shake"...
'cause if I couldn't resist... this might destroy what I've built until that frightening moment...
that thoughts in my head now, and I've only been off heroin for a month. not entirely off opiates, just off heroin, and depression killing me even now; I don't even imagine what I should expect after finally nullify (sp?) my MST dose.
I've also bee addicted for two years (shooting heroin, no oxys available in Eastern EU, though i'd like to snort one of those fuckers for 'knowledge purposes only' if you get the picture...).
were you and IVer, or a snort/smoke addict?

i completely understand this. because that's how it is right now, because i quit doing smack something like two and a half months ago.

it's like reality came and snuck up on me and beat the shit out of me because i don't have my cushion/insulation anymore.

and the only reason i quit was because i had to go overseas. :mad:

How does that quasimoto song go?

"Weeds weeds weeds is what we always needs?"

No drug problem, this post/incident/"problem" belongs in the Marijuana Bing thread...

this is very strange, normally i would never blab about my love of getting high, but its surprising how many people are going through the same shit.

and shentov, if youre still doing opiates, youre not clean, they are all highly addictive and all give you to varying degrees unpleasent withdrawl symtoms. you might wana try and methadone/suboxone detox. i did suboxone for 6 months, and while it doesnt literally cure your addiction, it provides you an oppurtunity to shake the habit of ritual. this meaning that half the battle is just to get used to living a life without drugs, which means not getting cash, making the phone calls, scoring, cooking, shooting, all that stuff is just as addictive. but meds can help you get through the day and make you not wanna get high, just make sure youtre coming off the dose little by little.

cantanky; youll feel better soon. trust me, 3 more months youll feel like a million bucks. but the urge never leaves, itll always be there. thats why i smoke pot again, i mean, i know AA preaches total sobriety, and i used to adhere to that philosophy, but marijuana is the only thing that curtails my anxiety, and does so in a manner that is totally harmless. i dont even really consider marijuana a drug (i know thats stupid) because it so vastly can improve the user's quality of life. i should stay away from booze though, booze is evil.

are you ready to check into a las vegas hotel suite under an assumed name with intent to commit capital fraud and a head full of acid?

my drug trajectory went something like this. first got high off weed when i was 13 with these older kids who i knew from the skatepark. i immedialtey loved it. it made me giggle and made me better/more fearless at skating, and music sounded amazing. this was a great time of my life, i was discovering weed and black flag and skating and girls all at the same time. i also then started drinking, blah blah. then came shrooms and acid, scared myself multiple times with both those wonderful chemicals. then came extasy and bad techo music in shitty clubs. had some great times with that. then cocaine/speed simultaneously. i got addicted to coke for a few months, especially after i had mono and got way behind in school i was sniffin coke and taking adderal all day every day. then oxycontin, snorting them. from then on all my money went to opiates and weed so i could get double-y high. i never got hooked though because theyre so expensive here. when i moved to tucson (almost 19 at this point) to start my freshman year i immediatley fell for a junkie chick. she was hot, cool, liked curtis mayfield, and loved drugs. she got me oxys for real chreap and wed get high and fuck all the time. well, eventually that relationship collapsed (as all of this type within time do) and was fucked for a drug connection. this kid who i kinda knew and listened to rad music then introduced me to mexican black tar heroin. i started smoking the shit every fucking day, then me and the kid started a band. it was a full on junk band, all four dudes shot dope. we got nothing accomplished. i only was shooting for maybe 2 weeks before it finally hit me, "WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING TO MYSELF!?!?!?!?". callled my parents, told em i needed help, took a short break from school and got myself in treatment. and now im doing great. it sure as fuck helped to have awesome parents though. they accept me for who i am, and are compassionate enough to realize that my love of getting high doesnt mean im a bad person. but ok, no more drug talk, haha.

I think I know where you're coming from on this. My sister went through a really similar cycle minus the dope and my parents were really supportive and great to her when she realized she needed help. Accepting parents can be good to come by. Congratulations on doing great now though, it's really a shame to see good people fall deeply into the hard stuff.

i don't talk about it very openly hardly ever because most people just don't understand that i LOVE TO GET HIGH.

oh i definitely still smoke pot and drink. that's never going to change.

i am a magnet for h-addicts, ex and using. srsly. it is EERIE how many addicts i have in my life. it's affected me pretty negatively in a lot of ways, but i am also very understanding and tolerant of it. right now i'm struggling with one friend who WANTS to get clean and one who doesn't. it's so frustrating. especially when the temptation is there for myself.

its not a moral question, it's an illness.

it's like saying that you're a bad person for getting the flu.

i really hope all you going through tough shit get well.

i've never done major drugs and i don't have an addictive personality, i sometimes drink as a reaction to a feeling (and it always ends ugly, hence i try to not drink when i'm emotionally unstable) and i smoke cigarettes because i like to, i have felt the formative stages of addiction (the craving) when i don't smoke, i try to keep myself in check, but other than the fact that i like smoking, i sometimes use it as a reaction to feel better about certain aspects of my life currently, and that kinda sucks.

friend a) just cut-off friend b) for constantly borrowing money for NEW EXTREME DRAMAS every other week.

tonight it was $40 to cover a bad deal. according to friend b) his girlfriend was going to get beaten and/or raped if they didn't cough up $40 (friend a) just gave friend b) $15 to fill up his tank).

friend a) felt karmically compelled to give him the $40, but told friend b) and his nutjob girlfriend that that was the final straw.

all I can say is, about damn time.

an allergey of the body, and an illness of the mind, is what the higher power folk say. if anyone wants to find good group meetings but cant get into the cultiness/religiousness of the AA/NA/CA camp, should check out SMART RECOVERY. i still go to these once in a while. its a group based on the foundation of sobriety as method of improvinf thyself, improving your own life, and doing it for yourself, not a higher power. this was very helpful to me, as i could never buy into the higher power thing.

yeah i dont buy into the higher power either but much of the rest works-- what i did is i decided the "higher power" ws my better self, end of story, fuck god. ha ha ha. and i never went to any meetings. i just went to therapy for other things & my compulsions ceased. but yeah i used the bradshaw book to understand my crazed family. good stuff.

best wishes getting cured man-- whatever works.

That must be pretty hard on you :(

this thread sucks

you say that as if any thread you've started as of late has any value.


this thread has turned into a fucking NA meeting though.

drugs are overated

Right, just a quick one from me. !@#$%! mentioned earlier on about something called "Smart Recovery". For the US boardies, anyone who's interested in looking into this can check out their website:

http://www.smartrecovery.org/

And to find a local meeting/counselling place in your area, try this link:

http://www.smartrecovery.org/meetings_db/view/

Best of luck from me to all you abstainers and those who are struggling with any addiction, and much love. xxxx

*does not include cantankerous

^^^Does this mean what I think it means, Cantankers? (And no, I'm not being funny here, it's a serious question to a serious girl...)