it's kind of an inside joke

Oh, then this was clearly not in reference to our love, as that is a well-publicized truth.

I am drunk, I need more alcohol in me I hate that they stop serving alcohol at 2.

Watching the snow fall.

wondering whether some booze or some valerian is the better idea, for passing out and getting some actual sleep tonight. Keeping in mind I need to be up at 6 15.

I'm such a lightweight when it comes to booze that after just two or three beers, I tend to flake out. That's why I'm worried if knox invites me round to her place for drinks. She may take advantage of me!

i've recently discovered sleeping tablets. i used to think they'd never work but they do and have sorted my insomnia right out.

it's never too late to start popping pills.


i'm in stl. christ.

I'm realizing that I've been stupid. This is annoying because men are all stupid, but I like to think I'm better than my gender. Unfortunately, all my androgyny gets me is a side of crazy to go with the stupid main course. I only hope my beloved cyberstalker is reading this and can find some way to forgive me for being as much dog as cat in the end.

also listening to the brand new Nurse With Wound - Space Music.

Aargh!
No, really?
Whatever they do or think?

in the end, yeah. women are crazy and men are stupid. it's an equation I've never been able to prove wrong. it's why I prefer women for most everything. especially as therapists.

making a record

I totally disagree, but to each his/her own views and experience.

I got to meet my psychologist to get social welfare, on thursday.
I don't think I can make it (plus, I bet she doesn't know Sonic Youth)

I would bet my therapist knows Sonic Youth, but I don't think she'd go there unless I asked directly. She's gorgeous and has cool tatoos. I suspect she was a stripper to pay her way through school based upon what she had to say when I told her about my wife stripping. I haven't gone to her in a while though, because she didn't think I was crazy or depressed enough to justify it. Now she'd just tell me not to do stupid things, and I already know that.

send me a copy!

i just started working, it will be awhile

Now you have some cool therapists in th US (maybe you choose her deliberately; for rnr concerns!)

Watching The Big Bang Theory.

nope it was random. God fucks with my head like that.

the track i just finished is veering into twin infinitives territory. not what i intended.


and i am getting sick. fuck this.