Oh! No! Not yet man. But we want to start trying ASAP when we get back. Don't want to be overburdened with a wedding moving and then a kid lolll.

oh so it's not a shotgun wedding? i see

well either way it's very cool. looks like you guys had fun in weedlandia.

best wishes in the next step!

Lol God no! No shotgun wedding...Yeah we had fun....lots of fun. Hella shit to explore man.

congrats Rob! And Evol too
Unfortunately we don't have the two weeks notice over here, I will need to stay for another couple of months before I find a new company where I'm not treated like sh!t

i totally got dumped last week and moved that 22 y.o. psycho the f outta my house

id rather not go into details as ive told the story a million times over to friends and im exhausted. she's doing that thing where she keeps leaving stuff at my house so she has a reason to come back. lets just say ive learned my lesson, and shouldve listened to people on the board before rushing into things despite knowing her for half a decade prior.

ive blocked her number and im not answering the door anymore. i'll be a toool and call the cops if she comes back causing hassle. idgaf anymore

kept the water filter she bought though

*sips out of mason jar*

getting my house in tip-top shape. office is coming along good. nice little purple room to do work, play games, and practice guitar in.

will post pics of my pedalboard once i have it set up

oh man! i wont quote you for posterity but is it ok if i lol?

not out of any perverse satisfaction, just pure funnies

ah! teenage love is so fleeting :D

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anyway sounds like you dodged a huge bullet. good for you!

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and now you don’t have to pretend to be vegan, yes? ;)

bro, she went batshit outta nowhere. we had great sex one night, she slept in, woke up depressed and it was pure madness, dumped me the next day and started packing up her shit. like if i actually fucked up, i'd admit it. i still can't make total sense of what happened, and all i can really attribute it to is her being young enough where she wants to explore and me being at that point in my life where im looking to start settling. that's not the reason she gave, but it's the only one that's logical

ain't no teenage love here, i'm two years shy of 30! i'm a very accommodating dude with my own house, lots of hobbies/interests, decent looking, hygienic, fashionable, etc.

i just dont care much for going out and drinking, etc. at this point and social media seems fruitless. i'll figure out how to meet someone a little more age appropriate next time.

sucks too, cause we really gelled for a sec. 3 month "honeymoon period" ended and then WHAM

....

and no, never pretended to be vegan. i made it very clear all her soy crap was nowhere near as good as the real deal. i ate A LOT of baked chicken in her presence lol

sure, but didn’t you miss hamburgers?

confess!

i cooked a lot of meat here still.

she could not have opened more windows and exhaust fans to dispose the smell whenever i did

oh that hideous delicious meat smell

good grief lmao

have me choose between young pussy and hamburgers though.. idk bro hahaha

fine, i’ll erase

(but why not have both)

yup... that's officially enough internet for me for tonight.

cya tomorrow or something symbols

k man

and feel well

the deprivation wont last for long

lol its all good fam

you got a laugh out of me

i was joshing a bit myself

and yeah yknow, im aware i dodged a bullet

but man it just gets lonely being in this house by myself all the time

i dont want a roommate, strangers disgust me, and my friends are all slobs or my lower-class suburban lifestyle isn't "hip" enough for them (blow me)

i just really enjoyed the feeling of 'belonging' somewhere i guess. idk. i'm tired, man

Gotta get my mom on social security, become her legal guardian, maybe stick her in a group home for nuts

i just wanna start a family and life of my own already - fuck

why cant i have that? why cant i ever just have a normal family? wife and two kids, a dog, a 9-5. that's all im asking for

oh, buffy, you will never be normal

...

and don’t sweat it, you’ll find a new girl—A BETTER ONE

(preferably dont meet her while coked up lmao)

Hamburgers I could turn down. Make it a chicken schnitzel, though, and I'd be in trouble.

i'm really not even into all the drugs and shit anymore man

i just want a wholesome existence, idk. my hero is spider-man. dead ass. like he goes around trying to save everyone, splitting his responsibilities and he's misunderstood. seen as a menace, and he never gets credit for what he does. does he get aunt may's heart medication, stop a bank robbery or meet up with MJ on that date? hes just trying to do the most good

like my mom and aunt were adopted from poland yknow? so like my moms the schizo weird one and my dad's the type of dude who impregnates a schizo. both are hardly literate, and i grew up sorta raising myself, locked away in my room beating my dick, cranking up korn cd's and playing nintendo - terrified of my mom talking to herself and shaking, taking her medicine, spilling it everywhere, staining the carpet

my mom's sister and her husband had two kids. whole family is very much right wing. super into the military, air force, Catholicism, etc. i'll never fit in with them, and i never have

ive been doing some soul searching and i think that plays a big part of why i am the way i am. idk. rebelling against that idea of perfection yet so desperately wanting to be a part of it.

everyone tells me i need therapy, but im so scared theyll put me on meds thatll hurt me physically, like whats beeen happening to my mom

its time to face my demons though, i guess. i just always thought that maybe with enough art i could escape all this shit. guess not. i was so good to that girl too. she didn't appreciate what she had here. *sigh*


i wish there was somewhere for me to hang my hat that wasn't like some alt-right misogynist rabbit hole.

you're a saint, Claire

I have descended from the heavens to bless these dark corners of the Internet. Now pray to me as your god.

no drugs? but i remember your new year better than you do ha ha ha

impregnating a schizo: look: not joking: someone had to! and here you are. don’t waste this chance.

somewhere to hang your hat: therapy! group is good too.

look, nobody can give you meds without your consent. learning to cope, dealing with survivor guilt, learning acceptance, etc, that is not meds.

the best education i ever got was 7 years therapy. ofc it took a few tries. some doctors are shitheads. but if you find a good shrink holy fuck it’s the best. like a priest without the religion. and they do groups which cost little to no $, depending. actually i had great shrinks. one who cured me and another who kept me sane in tough times. gotta try a few to find the one: like a pair of shoes.

yeah, i could use it. just binge ate some VERY spicy ramen and am listening to neurosis. i feel better, got that spicy food rush. gonna play some games to escape for a bit.

i just cant let this become my life. all alone playing video games. there's so much to do yknow? like i gotta get out and express myself. create my own destiny and shit

i got this book in the mail today, i'm gonna read it front to back:




it's from the Dilbert guy, but i've heard great things, just flipping through it seems very helpful

thanks for being you,!@#@$!@!#

it means a lot

i was only drunk that night i swear. we dont talk about that night anymore though. that's the night i hooked up with she-wolf.

coke night was new year's day. and i regretted it instantly that next morning. dried up blood in my nose and everything. i was disgusted with myself.


i wanna be as clear headed as possible. someone my cousin's kids can look up to. not their druggie uncle. i wanna give them 2nd cousins to play with yknow?

being alive fucking sucks hahahaha

like what an idiot, dumping me

clearly im the shiznit and a bag of chips

oh i realize now you are sore about it. understandable, man. rejection is always painful, even when it’s good/necessary.

and it’s too soon to make kids! way too soon. take it easy there. go to therapy first! learn to handle things.

that scott adams book is okay. the main takeaway for me was that chasing goals is stupid, but creating systems that produce consisten results is the key to... advancement, whatever. yes, the day in & day out. the rest i have mostly forgotten but that was my big payoff. routines matter A LOT.

ok gtg work...

Yea it is what it is ultimately. We were having so much fun together, but if she decided to flee the nest on a whim. I dont really need someone flippant like that here anyhow

Ain't got no time for that early twenties ballyhoo

yeah no fuc dat lololo

i'd like to say more but fucking millennial internet police lol

the puritans and their torches

Yea its in the past now, and I'm not gonna sweat it.

Should've noticed the obvious red flag when she called me an ableist for calling my friend an autist (which he literally is lol)

I feel better today. Got some sunshine, bought some powdered donuts, and even painstakingly sewed a backpatch onto my jacket.

One day at a time.

Sorry bout this shitty news, man. Nothing hurts worse than heartbreak. What I will say is for the love of God don't look on any of her social media. I remember making that mistake and it's just awful. Especially when the obligatory new profile pic comes up. Don't do it.

Dang bruh...heavy stuff yo. This is a good time to put some time into a cool talent....

yeah i'll be fine man. ive got rocksmith on pc recently. time to finally learn that 7 string guitar instead of just buying pedals like a capitalist pig boy.



lol i dont have conventional social media, just this forum, a video game/politcs one, discord and reddit. im chillin the most.

she called me 4 times today but i have her number blocked.

must want her water filter back. look at me not giving a fuck.

ive got so much bigger issues w getting my mom on social security, putting her in a group home, etc.

i dont care about some 22 yo girl atm

(god i never thought id say that)

She'll end up throwing a brick through my window or some shit, keying my car, i'll call the cops like the swine i am and that'll be that

it's not about missing her at this point. its about getting my life back. i miss the sex and having someone to come home to at night. not her specifically. believe me.

THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT GUYS, EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU

were you able to decode my message? xD

pussy eating me alive?

find yrself a hot cougar that gives good head? haaa haaa haaa

bro this chick called me like 8 times today, i have her number blocked so they all went straight to voicemail.

like i get it, she left her water filter here. theyre like $30 on amazon. i dont have it in me to interact with her anymore. i gave her ample time to get her shit and was as cordial as possible. she was a total jerk the entire time.

im just keeping the house on lockdown and her number blocked. what are the odds she does something nuts?

Does she have a history of impulsive behavior?

I'd say so.

She dated me, and moved into my house, after what - like a week of us fucking?

I had thought she was single. She told me the guy cheated on her, and she was stuck living with him. I assumed they were stuck in a lease. She was in a toxic scenario and i was helping her out.

Turns out he didn't cheat, she caught him "texting other girls" (i know, i know) and that they were still together but sleeping in separate rooms, not being physical, etc.He was paying all the rent/bills at their apartment in Detroit, and she was driving his mom's car around after her's got stolen because... Detroit.

Her and I got into a very minor tiff, her friend recorded me in my own home (the story is so weird, i know), and she dumped me and moved out the next day.

This chick is a nut dude. Her and her fat tough guy dad and brother are gonna come bash my nugget in over a Brita filter lmfao

Im just laying low, hoping she tires herself out.

just mail her the fucking thing

dont give excuses for drama

just do it

I dont know where she lives lmfao