oh god. stay away.

anything more than 15 people is hell for me.

aw! that's adorable.

yeah, and it's a game night and we lost so the drunks will be angry and drink more and the cops will come, which is loads of fun if I had another sober person to talk to, but I don't.

Haha, glad you think so because that led to the 30 minutes of awkward closeness and trying to guess the others next move, then that gave way to more laughing, eating of pitas and watching Aladdin because we're lame nerds.

the cops are always the best part.

i've had maybe five or six friends in the course of my life that i've ever been good enough friends with to hang out on weekends. never bothered me, though.

I tend to be solitary during most of the day, but when 8 or 9 rolls around, I'm out finding something to do. I'll hang out with complete strangers if need be.

i was alone all day and wanted to go out, but i ended up just falling asleep. i really need some new people.

It is, but it's kind of a double-edged sword because there's only so much one-on-one hanging out before feelings come to a head. Like, we haven't hung out a lot in past week or so, we still talk 30 minutes to a few hours a day, but no the hanging out from 10 at night until 9 in morning, sleeping, then hanging out until 8 that night.

The group of people I was hanging out with a lot just had a big fight, but I'm neutral so I'm still cool with all of them...but they're kind of lame, so I need new ones too.

my problem is right now i don't have one-on-one time with anyone much. and i suck in groups.

i'm always neutral in fights, no matter how much i may like or dislike either side. i refuse to get in the middle.

I much prefer one-on-one, even with the awkwardness. Groups just turn into drama.

I try to keep in the middle, but usually I get dragged to one side or the other, or they piss me off enough that I choose a side.

hah, i got suckered in to my old friend's breakup fight and really didn't care about any of it, but i supported her at the end because he went from a good guy to total creep.

amy poehler had a baby boy today. i think he's the new coolest human on the planet. until my cousin's daughter is born on thursday.

That's understandable. I'll give my opinion but I won't usually choose sides unless one is clearly the better side.

Two of my good friends from high schools girlfriends/babymammas are having kinds in December. I want no part of it.

babies usually can zap away whatever bitterness i have towards the earth at that time. i hate kids ages 8-17 but anything below, and they're automatically cute and awesome. i think because six year olds or so in general haven't discovered cursing and humping-as-dance-moves. my brother's seventh grade dance this week was like watching a "how to have sex" video. good god.

Yeah, I'm cool with kids until about 5ish then I want no part of it. I just want no part of this because I've known these guys since the 6th grade and I think that them having children is a mistake because they are mostly worthless people whose main goal in life is to smoke as much pot as possible. And one of them will leave his girlfriend within a year if they don't get hitched, the other's "girlfriend" (because they're not technically together) will leave him within the same amount of time.

stories like that make me so mad. i know this couple, he's 17 and she's 18, and they want to get married and do the baby thing asap, but both of them are so lazy and all-around dumb i'm afraid their baby will come out with a beer belly and wii controller in hand.

all parties involved with my story are 19 and one of the couples flunked out of college after the first year.

Okay, I'm just going to come out and say it, I love the song "First Date" by Blink-182

why would you hide that awesome of a fact? i love blink 182.

because I feel the need to hide my love of mainstream pop music from most people.

5 Mainstream Pop Songs Josh Loves other than 'First Date'
1. "What's My Age Again?"
2. "I Melt With You"
3. "Lucky Star"
4. "Come Out and Play (Keep 'Em Separated)"
5. "Friday I'm In Love"

I'm a totaly weepy bitch for "Friday I'm In Love" and "I Melt With You".

people sometimes will not believe that, GASP, i like songs that they do.

other than blink 182 and because you already put the offspring for me, my list is:

1. "material girl"
2. "rip her to shreds"
3. that panic at the disco song with the "goddamn door" line. whatever that's titled. i love it.
4. "misery business" by paramore
5. "heart of glass"

i actually really don't mind paramore, but that may because a few friends are into them and i just have to accept it being on all the time.

i giggle like a lunatic whenever "melt with you" comes on because i used to picture people melting. when i was eight. it's still funny to me.