I haven't read all of the thread so if there's double of things, MY BAD.

1) What kind of excersise are you doing? low impact work outs like yoga are the best to release endorphins AND toxins. It's not enough to run/walk, you need to stretch. Not just legs- but all areas of the body.

2)eat bananas (potassium), if you are a goth kid make sure you sit in the sun for at least 15 minutes a day (for vitamin d-III, which you can not find in vitamins)

3) get on a regular sleep pattern (8 hours a day, other wise you are simply asking to be depressed). take 'true calm', 'kava kava', or melotonin on a reg basis. they can be pricey, but they're super easy to steal if worse comes to worse. try to stay away from tylenol pm, ambien, or other sleep medications.

4) as far as activities go- check out community calanders. you're obviously not going to make life long friends, but you'll be connecting with human beings at least somewhat. it's important.

what city are you in?

pm me.

im super-awesome at finding things to do.

^^^ thank you very much.

I treadmill. have been doing 10km/90 minutes, but cutting that back because I think it's too much. I also lift dumbell weights (all I have) and situps. not enough stretching though. will do.

do not get enough vit. K. will add 'nanas to diet. get next to NO sun. felt like a shut-in lately. sit in office getting a monitor tan. working on that.

sleep has been bad. random hours, sometimes not enough, sometimes too much. I'm working on a 17 hour time difference with my gf and that makes sleep hard. I'd rather be around when she is. also...working on doing better at that. bed has been shit. scoots around, pillows fall off, I wake up all night. fixed the roll and have been sleeping somewhat better.

I'm north of LA right now. not too interested in making "new" friends because I don't have enough time yet. leaving in a little over two weeks...

have concert next week, hope to hang out with suchfriends and might go to venice beach tomorrow...maybe take niece to disneyland.

feel like my straight-edge lifestyle might need to take a break...

yr thoughts are very appreciated and the advice will be taken. thank you.

Listen to this song yo.....


it's awesome.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lJ-v-Ex58w

I second the suggestion of stretching. Attempting to touch your toes (ie stretching your hamstrings I guess) can create an incredibly relaxed/contented sensation.

Also, hang out with your niece, even if it's not disneyland. Kids can really take you out of your own head.

I live with the niece, and yeah, she's a lot of fun. my kind of girl.

star wars before princesses...video games before dolls.

that said, can you teach me how to fail a Voight-Kampff?

:(

I had a bf who was 2 hrs behind me, and THAT was hard. long distance relationships suck in that respect.

my advice to you would be explain to your gf that you need sleep.

(YOU NEED SLEEP.)

It's starting to affect (...effect??) your mood and lifestyle. I'm sure she'll understand if it's only going to be 2 weeks before you see her.

Best of luck!!

go to gnc and buy yourself a can of "100% gold standard natural whey" and have a shake after each workout-- it will help with the recovery.

you'd better! otherwise, how the hell are you going to be able to do this?

she needs sleep as much as I do...more so maybe. no maybe...more so. I think we're both doing better at that though due to no other choice. at least, I am. she still has night with less than 4 hours. that's no good.

and yes 17 hours is brutal.

thank you again for kind advice.

I usually eat dinner right after the long walk. seriously having to cut back on that...I think my brain is being punished. and I DO stretch, just not as well as I should.

I also should have posted this thread a month ago before the near melt-down.


ps: miyazaki also helped. been looking for Nausicaa for a week, and yr "I wated Ponyo" inspired me to just get it.

dinner is not the same as whey which is quick absorption aminoacids that get mobilized into the bloodstream and help repair the muscle right away. best consumed within 30 minutes of finishing the workout, then you shower and make dinner and eat your greasy tacos or what have you.

ok Ill look into it then.

I wish I had greasy tacos every night... limit to special treat.

it's rice, beans, corns, peppers and some chicken...most nights.

currently relaxing to Apocalypse Now - redux.

everytime I think I'm going to wake up back in the jungle.

Yeah, my niece is similar. I played Heroquest (my favourite childhood game) with my nephew and niece the other day and my niece was digging it hard.


Too much empathy? I swear, empathy is a dangerous emotion. Too much of it and it's kind of crippling. Too little and you're accused of being a sociopath (/replicant).

pick up a hooker and take her out for ice cream

Floats and I should start an old-school emocore band, last for only a week, and be legends to a generation after.

good luck with that one

It's better than giving sperm ice to prostitutes. And I know that's what you meant, don't deny it.

no, man. ive always wanted to pick up a whore and pay her to have ice cream with me. serious.

Yeah, Pretty Woman was a pretty good movie, I suppose.

ive never seen it, i don't like either of those two