watching say yes to the dress. I don't know why, but I love this show. it scares me.

i just saw the police take down a guy at the bus stop two blocks from my house who had a sawn off shotgun wrapped in a bag!!!

writing another cover letter.

having matcha

about to get ready togo out and catch a train to the city

Wow. That flipped day thing just hit home there. Good luck. I want you to succeed badly. No sarcasm whatsoever.

Watching Twin Peaks, being a creeper, singing the Sex Pistols

Thinking.

Probably going to get off my ass soon and go for a walk. Get high.

Sitting on my couch, waiting on my friends to drop by on their way to a party. I could probably tag-along if I wanted to but I end up feeling awkward because one of them goes to meet guys and I inhibit that, but if they ask I'll throw on my party shoes and go.

Yeah, going to parties with people who are just looking to hook up with someone can be rather shitty.

You could end up having a good time though! Normally when I go out and do something I'm unsure about I end up having a lot more fun than I would just sitting at home by myself.

but sometimes I don't have fun and I have to make such an effort to look like I am having fun and socializing that I don't bother.

Yeah, I'd for sure have a better time out there than in my apartment. Quality of alcohol is also a factor: out there is only cheap keg beer, here I have vodka and whiskey and tunes. I don't, I'll feel out the situation when they get here in a few.

That is why I love being a smoker. I just chain smoke my blues away.

SY37, you could bring your alcohol with you? I always bring my own shit, fuck kegs.

I got drunk with my best friend a couple of hours ago. She just left the apartment because she wanted to "get some vibe" so she went to some disco or somewhere.
it's 2.30 AM. it's ridiculous. i better turn this machine off and go to sleep because otherwise I'll feel old.

This is true. However, in Amerikkka, I'm still technically underage and these parties have a habit of getting busted and I really don't need a MIP charge a exactly a month before I turn 21. Next month, fuck yeah, I'll go and bring my own bottle.

You shouldn't worry about the lice unless you're an idiot. You're not an idiot are you? If the party gets busted they'll go for the mouthy fuckers and you can stumble away with a big fat grin.


Whatttt??? If you go to bed now you should feel old!

ha ha ha, have you ever been 29? ;)

yeah, a few years make all the difference. I used to be up all night very often drinking and now I just wanna get up early.

Oh yes, several times before.

When I was 29, a drank 3 Texas mickeys in a row and went out and partied til 12pm the next day.

Be as bad ass as me.

that's almost too badass for me

 

With a pin like that, I'd think so.

I'm going to the par-tay. Oh noez.

I'm reeling. My "real" life hit a low last night that is flat out inappropriate to post on the internet, while my "virtual" life is both incredibly romantic and mentally stimulating. I have a hard enough time distinguishing fantasy and reality in "normal" circumstances. This is one of the strangest times I've ever gone through.

I'm getting trashed with Fender

schemin'.

That is my MO but the pigs usually make a dash for the people carrying liters of booze. Which would be me. The party tonight was meh, it was split into 2 groups: the cool and the lame, and they didn't intermingle. I ended up having to drive, so sobriety for me. Lots of underagers there, but it was far enough out to not be disturbed. I rate it a 7/10.

currently in a state of euphoria after seeing this man:

you lucky mu'fuggin' bastard!!!!

waiting

for what?

I don't even know.

Better not take a number yet then.

if I'm taking anything it's a lifetime.

does that make sense? I think it does. a little.

A little, but it doesn't take a lifetime. It takes until you turn 27 and then you'll start wanting to have a child desperately, and then by 35 you'll want to be 22 again.

Meanwhile, keep on waiting. It's actually the best part.

I'll take your word on that.

Just wait and see.

I'm just hoping there's a big fat reward at the end of it.

but if there's not I'm okay with that too.

The big fat reward is that when you have that midlife crisis, you get to start all over again. Woo-hoo.

aha! sounds good. I've been waiting a long time for one of those.

You're half way there! You can sing the rest...

WHOOOOOOOAAAAA YOU'RE HALF WAY THERE

WHOOAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!11 LIVIN' ON A PRAYYAAAHHHHHH











































I officially deserved to be euthanized for knowing those lyrics.

I hate you for putting that in my head. :(

I'm going to bed now.

I'm halfway there. FUCK.