yeah, i could use it. just binge ate some VERY spicy ramen and am listening to neurosis. i feel better, got that spicy food rush. gonna play some games to escape for a bit.

i just cant let this become my life. all alone playing video games. there's so much to do yknow? like i gotta get out and express myself. create my own destiny and shit

i got this book in the mail today, i'm gonna read it front to back:




it's from the Dilbert guy, but i've heard great things, just flipping through it seems very helpful

thanks for being you,!@#@$!@!#

it means a lot

i was only drunk that night i swear. we dont talk about that night anymore though. that's the night i hooked up with she-wolf.

coke night was new year's day. and i regretted it instantly that next morning. dried up blood in my nose and everything. i was disgusted with myself.


i wanna be as clear headed as possible. someone my cousin's kids can look up to. not their druggie uncle. i wanna give them 2nd cousins to play with yknow?

being alive fucking sucks hahahaha

like what an idiot, dumping me

clearly im the shiznit and a bag of chips

oh i realize now you are sore about it. understandable, man. rejection is always painful, even when it’s good/necessary.

and it’s too soon to make kids! way too soon. take it easy there. go to therapy first! learn to handle things.

that scott adams book is okay. the main takeaway for me was that chasing goals is stupid, but creating systems that produce consisten results is the key to... advancement, whatever. yes, the day in & day out. the rest i have mostly forgotten but that was my big payoff. routines matter A LOT.

ok gtg work...

Yea it is what it is ultimately. We were having so much fun together, but if she decided to flee the nest on a whim. I dont really need someone flippant like that here anyhow

Ain't got no time for that early twenties ballyhoo

yeah no fuc dat lololo

i'd like to say more but fucking millennial internet police lol

the puritans and their torches

Yea its in the past now, and I'm not gonna sweat it.

Should've noticed the obvious red flag when she called me an ableist for calling my friend an autist (which he literally is lol)

I feel better today. Got some sunshine, bought some powdered donuts, and even painstakingly sewed a backpatch onto my jacket.

One day at a time.

Sorry bout this shitty news, man. Nothing hurts worse than heartbreak. What I will say is for the love of God don't look on any of her social media. I remember making that mistake and it's just awful. Especially when the obligatory new profile pic comes up. Don't do it.

Dang bruh...heavy stuff yo. This is a good time to put some time into a cool talent....

yeah i'll be fine man. ive got rocksmith on pc recently. time to finally learn that 7 string guitar instead of just buying pedals like a capitalist pig boy.



lol i dont have conventional social media, just this forum, a video game/politcs one, discord and reddit. im chillin the most.

she called me 4 times today but i have her number blocked.

must want her water filter back. look at me not giving a fuck.

ive got so much bigger issues w getting my mom on social security, putting her in a group home, etc.

i dont care about some 22 yo girl atm

(god i never thought id say that)

She'll end up throwing a brick through my window or some shit, keying my car, i'll call the cops like the swine i am and that'll be that

it's not about missing her at this point. its about getting my life back. i miss the sex and having someone to come home to at night. not her specifically. believe me.

THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT GUYS, EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU

were you able to decode my message? xD

pussy eating me alive?

find yrself a hot cougar that gives good head? haaa haaa haaa

bro this chick called me like 8 times today, i have her number blocked so they all went straight to voicemail.

like i get it, she left her water filter here. theyre like $30 on amazon. i dont have it in me to interact with her anymore. i gave her ample time to get her shit and was as cordial as possible. she was a total jerk the entire time.

im just keeping the house on lockdown and her number blocked. what are the odds she does something nuts?

Does she have a history of impulsive behavior?

I'd say so.

She dated me, and moved into my house, after what - like a week of us fucking?

I had thought she was single. She told me the guy cheated on her, and she was stuck living with him. I assumed they were stuck in a lease. She was in a toxic scenario and i was helping her out.

Turns out he didn't cheat, she caught him "texting other girls" (i know, i know) and that they were still together but sleeping in separate rooms, not being physical, etc.He was paying all the rent/bills at their apartment in Detroit, and she was driving his mom's car around after her's got stolen because... Detroit.

Her and I got into a very minor tiff, her friend recorded me in my own home (the story is so weird, i know), and she dumped me and moved out the next day.

This chick is a nut dude. Her and her fat tough guy dad and brother are gonna come bash my nugget in over a Brita filter lmfao

Im just laying low, hoping she tires herself out.

just mail her the fucking thing

dont give excuses for drama

just do it

I dont know where she lives lmfao